Jahiliyyah (Part I)

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Each night & every nap I dream
I can’t remember what happened I don’t know what they mean
Maybe Shaytaan is playin with me
Are these visions of events my eyes will soon see?
What’s gonna happen to me?
I aint afraid, I’ll give my life
but I wanna die in peace
I remember when my plan shattered to pieces
I & my friends scattered like winds on stormy beaches
I walked the desert I faced the sun
I learned from my deeds, every one:
I used to tell lies to my own mother
I used to hide & run for cover in the lives of others-
- the others were those I was trying to be
I thought an image & a crew could make a new me-
I often died in my sleep;
I woke up & couldn’t move or even breathe
My whole past was a game:
the goal was to get off before I got old
or went insane

This autobiographical blog should open your mind clog,
clear out the smoke, evaporate fog, & dissipate smog
I know you turn in you sheets,
you wanna block out the whole world, because you can’t sleep
I used to drink too, but it won’t drown the pain
I smoked just like you, but when you sober nothing’s changed
I lost my self in music, but it only makes you think
I got my head checked by a shrink, but every shrink’s seeing a shrink
I took drugs, but they won’t take you above, high, low, below,
or anywhere else you wanna go
I even tried sex, when it’s over you’re just left alone
to ask your self who or what is next

When you’re on the way to nowhere
your struggle never ends
When you’re nowhere you’re alone,
even with friends
No matter where you turn, you find you’re still in
The only escape is to repent…
…while you still can…

*Jahiliyyah (Arabic): Time of Ignorance; Place of Ignorance